What is My Visibility?

I am not very good about schedules, as you can see.  I realize now that I can't say when I'll write a post.  Honestly, I really wanted to write before this.  The ideas were there -- but the love wasn't.  I was hurt, angry, or apathetic.  I have wrote some things, but it wasn't appropriate for sharing here.

Sometimes there are things I write that are just for me, myself, and God to see.  If, by some weird turn in the world as we now know it, many years from now, my journals become historically significant -- then they'll become public.  It won't be by my design.  I'm not knocking publishing one's journals, but I don't see the significance in mine.  Sometimes I wonder, though - as I'm reading through the book of Psalms ... as I think about the songwriters I've known - did David ever think that some of what he was writing was private, too?  I feel a sense that maybe some of the songs David wrote were also just for he, himself, and God.

Songwriters and poets I've known or seen interviewed talk about how sometimes it is a particular raw, pure emotion driving a particular piece.  The creatives I know (people from any form of this kind of communicative displays; writers, poets, musicians, artists) have said there is almost always a "folder" somewhere that contains their versions of this concept, too -- things made that were releasing and freeing, an unburdening of their hearts you might say.  These sort of pieces are uncontrollably created and not intended for a public's consumption.

This is how I feel about my writing.  My priorities are such that I want this place to be for my "polished jewelry" to be "on display," if you can see the visualization.  The button I click when I am finished is labeled "publish" for a reason.  With the world of technology the such it is, there aren't the culling {read sometimes crushing} procedures of the major publishing companies any more.  Absolutely anyone can become a published author.  What I keep "in the back" is what is either not finished yet (way too many of those kinds!) or is something I want kept private.

I strive for authenticity and transparency.  But with that being said, no one should be transparent to the same degree all the time.  Let's see if I can explain what I mean.  There are subjects we will talk about with absolutely anyone - but to what level of details?  I'll share about my children with my husband in greater detail than I would with my friends.  And the person sitting in the stands next to me at a NHL hockey game will get even less detail.  The world of technology has it's place in the list, too.

Our presence on social media sites and blogs should be honest representations of who we are and what we believe.  The details about some things shouldn't be shared.  There was the running joke in a commercial several years ago about a pair of parents who got involved with their children's social media site.  The father who kept {over} sharing about every little thing he did - going to the kitchen, having dinner, going to the patio. That is what I'm talking about right now.  It is a place that levels of transparency REALLY needs to be taught.

All of this, I guess, has been a giant "I'm Sorry" for not writing for so long.  I don't want this to sound like I'm making excuses.  I did want to give you the reason, though.  As part of my "Word for the Year" project, I am going to actively seek out and express JOY this coming new year.  I'll right more about it later.  It's lunchtime and my sushi awaits!