The Currents From Currents

On Thursday night, our church held a worship event that we call "Currents."  The purpose of the event is to have a night that we get together for two hours (or more) to just worship at the feet of God and praise Him for all he has done and will do.

The next morning I was awoken for some personal time with Jesus.  I wrote something and as I looked back over it, I knew I needed to share it with our worship leader, Ben.  I photocopied the two sides of the sheet and wrote him a note of encouragement that told him I appreciated all the work he does for our worship time every week, not just at special events and that things like what I'm sharing happen frequently for me.  Once he (finally - he's quite social) went into his office and read the note, he came to thank me and through a little conversation asked if he could share it to the church's blog if he posted it anonymously.  Of course I said yes as I was already planning to share it here.

So with no further ado, what I wrote yesterday morning after a night of Currents worship:

6:20 am-ish -- I can no longer tell what time it is.  I am sitting here in the bathroom waiting upon the Lord.  I am an open vessel to be filled.

I'm just going to write what comes to my mind.  We had a worship night at church last night.  The guy Ben asked to speak was very insightful.  I don't know how many others did, but I was really moved.  The message was about what the gift of prophesy really was and what it definitely isn't.  He concluded with four different ways prophetic word may sound.  I think I've been used by God in at least one of them.  We were encouraged to sit and listen for the voice of God.  I didn't hear a different kind of voice per say.  I just had the thought in my head - talking to me rather than the way I 'speak' outwardly.  He took the speaker's explanation of how he was just trying to "connect the dots" and with that He proceeded to do just that.  All the "little" things I've been learning are connected together to create a bigger picture of who He's created me to be.  He has taken the baby steps with me.  I see it now.  He's been at that for a few years now. I get one bit of information and I got some time to think about it and process the way I fit into it.  Then some other thing will come.  Sometimes I'll see a connection - like some large and important piece is broken into dots that I see the line bringing them together.  Most of the time I don't.  Last night brought the "separate" dot clusters together.  I still don't see the big picture but last night one last shackle was broken.  One of the songs chosen to use last night had a line - "I will look back and see You are faithful" - that I thought was a bit odd using the word 'will' but now I see why they did.  When I sang it last night, it was talking about right now.  I now really see that He has been, is, and will always be faithful.  I can trust Him because He's not let me down and He's not about to start now.

Yes, I sometimes write in my bathroom.  It's the only place I get uninterrupted privacy!  I am also reminded today that in order to make a 'Connect the Dots' picture, you have to put down what look like random dots before they're numbered.  I now really believe I can go through the 'random' dropping of dots because He will be faithful and show the connection between them when He has completed that part of the great big picture in me.